Baby#4

I really can't believe it, but we will be a family of 6 in August!

Shortly after baby Ashton turned 1, I made the decision that our family was complete.  My hands are truly full, we have a therapist in our home for 2-3 hours a day 6 out of 7 days a week, and I'm working more than I'm used to.  I gave away all our baby items--bassinet, 0-9 month clothes, bouncy seat, etc.  I was mentally ready to enjoy the heck out of my boys and enter a different season of life.  Even with all the baby items out of our home, the feeling of peace never came.  In fact, I knew in my heart that I had made the wrong decision.   I fought it for a long time--several months--cried, felt angry, frustrated--every emotion possible.  Not that I wouldn't love another child, I just want to be ENOUGH to the children I have.  Now that I'm finally getting enough sleep, Aiden is getting his therapy, and Austin is thriving in school, I was finally finding balance in life, and some reprieve from all the stress of living off a student income and fighting for Aiden's needs.  From a temporal perspective, having another child made no sense at all, but from an eternal perspective, it was absolutely what the Lord wanted for our family.  I knew it.  Abe knew it.  It was just a matter of taking the leap of faith.  Finally, I turned to God, fasted, and prayed.  Please Heavenly Father.  If this is what you want for our family, please help me change my heart so I can do your will.  Please.  This is going to be hard, and I'm going to need you more than ever.  Please help. 

A great thing about prayer--it works.  I may not always read my scriptures, but I pray every single day.  I know the power of prayer, and from that day on, my heart was indeed changed.  I found peace again.  Peace that I could do His will, and all would work out.  Peace that I had finally made the right decision, and I could move forward with faith.  And so I did.  I'm happy and excited to report we are 2 months pregnant with baby #4--our final little blessing.  Time passes so quickly, before we know it, we will welcome a new son or daughter into our lives with open arms feeling grateful and blessed for the gospel that continues to lead us in the right direction. 

Aiden-6

Austin-4

Ashton-20 months

AJ (Abraham Jr) or Addison (Addy)???