A-moments

Call them Aiden moments or autism moments, but they are rough...

When Aiden wants something, he wants it BAD.  Normally, I can read Aiden like a book and help him find what he is looking for, even when he can't verbalize what it is.  However, yesterday morning he wanted "bears," and I had no clue what he was talking about.  He has teddy bears, but he prefers his elephants, so I really was at a loss.  Aiden became very upset when I couldn't find what he wanted.  So upset, I had to shut myself in my room to handle the crying.  Aiden pounded on the door for a few moments, then finally, in a low, sweet whimper, Aiden said a rare sentence.  "Momma.  Open the door."  Of course I did, and Aiden gave me the best hug ever.  We sat there on the floor hugging each other for a long while.  

Something must have thrown him off again, because the same day, about 3 hours later, he was upset about something that "wound up".  He wanted to stay outside and refused to get in the van.  He cried for over an hour, and just wanted to be held when we got inside the house.  

These moments are very rare, but when they do happen, it is rough.  These are the moments I really wish I could put myself in his shoes, or better yet, that Aiden would finally find his voice.