It has been nearly a year since Aiden's diagnosis...
I've learned so much about autism, myself, and "the big picture" this year. I don't think I can accurately write how much Aiden's diagnosis has changed me as a mother, a friend, and professional. Most of the time I feel grateful. Some days I wish I never had to see, hear, or read another thing about autism. I've learned to keep an open mind, to question "research", and find my way spiritually. I continue to struggle with all the unknowns, and I pray that someday I will truly be at peace with them. One thing is for sure, I have a lot more questions now than I ever did for our Heavenly Father. Gratefully, the question of why this has affected Aiden and our family has already been answered. Aiden is our blessed gift. Heavenly Father trusts me with him, and that is what keeps me going, no matter how inadequate I feel as a mother.
27 weeks pregnant, Aiden-4, Austin-2
Ironically, I was always the one who befriended the "underdog" in school. I went to prom with a special needs young man, and I had the time of my life--serious. Later, I worked with a special needs young woman in my first job as a Dietitian. We became good friends. I still wonder what ever came of those great people I was blessed to cross paths with. My deepest hope is that Aiden makes good friends--friends who accept him, and are patient with his challenges. I can't protect him all his life. He needs to find his way on his own. I hope he meets some inspiring people along the way!
I'm excited to see what the coming year has to bring for Aiden. How our lives will change with a new addition to the family, and what path the good Lord will take us in after Abe finishes school next Spring. So many more changes coming our way...
