What a rough year so far on all counts, but we are going to make it!
I haven't documented our journey in 3 months because we are going through a rough transition. In January, I felt spiritually that it was time to sell our home of 11 years. I trusted that revelation, and knew that was always part of the plan. We outgrew our home years ago, and have made it work successfully with the older boys in the basement and the younger 2 upstairs. I was excited about the prospect of finding a new home for our family that Abe and I could choose together--a place where we could have more space for our boys to be well, boys!
I had no idea what would happen next!
As soon as we sold our home, nothing fell into place from there. Our home appraised low, there was something wrong with the roof, the houses we were trying to buy fell through, and then there was no time left to even find a rental to move into. The stress was more than I could bare. I had no idea what it felt like to not have the security of a HOME. No idea. While I have always appreciated our home--no matter how small it is--I never would have anticipated the emotional strain losing stability could put on a person.
Now add to that a child who is struggling to live in a world that he doesn't quite comprehend. The teacher was giving out Skittles for something, and Aiden didn't earn one, so he refused to move from his spot. The teacher asked a colleague to come get me, but I was no help either. Aiden refused to leave the school. He remained firm and pouting behind his desk. Stuck. After trying to reason with him, I eventually had to pick him up and carry him out of the classroom and to our home (thankfully it was still across the street). My 3 other boys tagged along behind us.
Well Aiden, I feel pretty stuck too. I don't understand either. What is there to learn from this? How do we move forward now? What does our Heavenly Father want from us, and how can we endure it well?
Yesterday we finally signed a lease for an apartment. That leaves us with 2 weeks to stay on someone's couch as a family of 6. Where do I put Aiden in school? Is this the time to home school? So many uncertainties. So many questions.
What is NEXT?
For now, I'm doing my best to live with GRATITUDE for the many gifts and blessings we do have. We have each other. We have supportive family and friends, and we have our health. I've never felt the power of someone else's prayers until yesterday. This will be ok, and something good will come from it!
Staying hopeful for a fun, healthy summer!
